I'm sharing this to you because my "unnie" and I had some conversation about life and I couldn't help but to laugh seeing the story I have written this past few years. It's so us, but in a different way and the characters that I have written was somehow based to that person I admire and idolize. Anyhoo! I hope you guys would like it!
MEETING DART VADER
(PART 1)
Trust is an issue. Dreams are
hard to fulfill. Pain is never ending. What am I going to do with my life? As I
lay down myself to sleep, I think about my future. What’s going to happen? Who
will I be in the future? How will my life end? Or will I make it to the future?
Things like this makes me crazy, I felt that life is so hard on me that I can’t
even make one step to make my dreams come true. Where all my dreams went? When
I was in school all I have put in my mind is that when I graduate, I’ll be
successful just like my parents, but life hit me hard. As in big time! Life is
not as easy as 123. That when you wake up in the morning you’re already there.
But that is just a long lost dream of a long lost dreamer like me.
Every day I look at the days when
everything seems to be so easy, that the only thing you worry about is how you
can pass your subjects and crazy homework’s given to you by your heart stopping
terror professors. Now, life is so different than school. I have searched for
different ways on how to get a job. But I felt that I’m screwing things up.
It’s not that I didn’t do my best but those freaking companies won’t accept me.
Am I over qualified? Not so qualified? Or I’m just in the middle? Or worst
comes to worst they just don’t need me, they just need to practice themselves
so that they can be better interviewer.
“Oh come…….” But before I
finished what I’m going say, “Oh come on! What could be worst?” a girl
screaming at the top of her lungs despite of her soaking wet. “Is this what you
got huh? I was rejected by 5 companies this day because they felt that I wasn’t
qualified enough, that my speaking voice is not as loud and clear as they want
to! Can you hear me? I’m talking so loud that a person beside me would be deaf
in a minute!”
I studied her, her pink back pack
was covered with mud on the sides, her hair was tied up with a red bow, she
fixed herself as she immediately slips her small feet into her boots and wore
her yellow raincoat, as she shivers so cutely that I almost locked my eyes on
her and she didn’t even notice that there is someone beside her. So she
continue “Screw you! Screw you all! Is that what you’ve got? I have failed a
lot of times! Did you see me having a hard time? Huh?! Did you see that I’m
losing hope! Of course not! Why would I lose it? People might think I’m crazy
and so what! This is my life! And I’m going to use it with all my might! Who
are you to tell me to stop believing? Screw you monsters! Screw you!”
She slowly lowered her head and
whispered screw you monsters over and over again as she make her nails sounds
as she closed her eyes and pray “Sorry God, I didn’t mean to be angry it’s just
that the world I live in seems to be so cruel”. She slowly lift her head up and
said “Fighting” and turn her head to my direction. Quite in a shock, her eyes
grew bigger and round “Oh my gee! How many minutes have you been there?” she
asked “Quite a while”. She get a little bit closer and asked again “Did you
hear everything I said?” out of honesty I said “Unfortunately, Yes”
She scratched her head and turn
her head on to the left and never looked back at me again until the rain stops
pouring. “Hey, whatever you’re thinking right now, don’t think about it. God
has better plans for you” she said as she started running away from me.
I smirked, seriously, where’s her
God when she needed Him? She’s soaking wet and 5 companies dejected her and she
still has those smile on her face. I bet I’m even older than her. I have
screwed more than 5 times than her. And there was no answer from the heavens
above that He’ll help me.
I went home with another empty
hand. I was clueless. I didn’t get the job that I wanted. I just wanted to
drown myself to sleep until I fulfill all my duties.
Another day had begun. Another
day of failures and disappointment. Burden with all the pain of hopelessness. I
just hate this.
Screech! I was hit by
a bicycle.
“Oh my gee! Are you okay? I’m so
sorry, I was so happy that I got my bike new pair of wheels that I didn’t
notice you crossing the street, are you alright? I hope I didn’t got you
bruised, because I don’t have a job and I don’t have money to send you to a
hospital and so I’m really begging for forgiveness if you may. And please don’t
call the police I am terribly so sorry!”
I was so irritated by her voice
that I yelled “I’m okay! So just get out of my sight!” but instead of leaving she
put a frown on her face “Oh by the way mister you don’t need to sha-aout, I can
completely hear you”. She stare at me “Like oh my gee, you’re the guy from the
rain! Hi! I’m Anakin!” what a name for a girl, I was so busy removing the dirt
on my shorts that I can’t help but to laugh “Is your mom a Star Wars fan that
she named you after Darth Vader and didn’t your mom told you to not talk to
strangers?” I laughed. “Hmmm. You don’t look that strange to me. Except for
that abnormal frown on your face.” She teased “And nope she said, he’s my
father, and that I am born from an ultra-galactic universe and I’m sent from
earth” she continued, but I gave her an unapproachable look. “Oh come on, have
all the senses of being happy is taken away from you? Yes, my mom loves Anakin
so much that she named me after him, well actually from her first love who is
unfortunately a dog” I smiled “Well that’s unfortunate”
“But if you don’t like the name,
you can call me Janika, well that’s my actual and real name. Anakin comes from
Janika except for the J, I really wanted my name to be like a gem, something
like Emerald or Sapphire or a Tiffany. It sounds like a princess or a queen to
me. And you are?” she asked, raising her
right hand “I’m Henry”. She shook my hand and said “Well Henry nice meeting,
you seem to look younger than me so I won’t use any honorific way of talking to
you. Gotta shoof! I need to deliver
this cookies to the store where orders are filling up!”
She disappeared like a whirlwind.
What a child? I don’t see anything that makes her older than me. Arggh! So
irritating! So early in the morning! I
started my so called day by cleaning the house, giving my dog a walk, buying not
so early groceries and I went back to bed thinking what I have done? What went
wrong? What happen to those precious childish days? I don’t know what to do?
I’m trap in this severe world. Where did all of my friends go? Henry, are you
dumb? My friends are all successful they had made a name in the business world
and here I am trap, stuck, nowhere to be found. Everybody has their own life. My
life is a complete mess, even if I don’t suffer from sever drinking or smoking
vices. My life was a mess. I was happy before but what has gotten into me. My
what if’s had turned into sadness and blaming failures of life. Darn! This
freaking life!
I went out of my room and found
my mother, still pretty even if her wrinkles are now showing. I could see the
hardships she went through because of me. And here I am I don’t have the life
she wanted me to have. I really wanted to escape, runaway, but there’s no doors
to open to leave this awful place. I wanted to shut everybody out and leave
like as if I was a dead plant. Well, they see me as a dead plant. No one even
bothers, they just stare at you and think like you’re a trash in this
environment. My everyday life sucks!
But somehow I tell you the next
day was a bit surreal. Not that I’m complaining. But I found it incredibly
weird and somehow frustrating?
“Honey, you look so dashing today! Getting
ready for your new job?” My mom, ever so positive, never gave me a frown on her
face even if I had failed her zillion of times. “Mom, I’m sorry”
“For what?”
“For never being a good son”
“Honey, your all what I want to
be, like may give you a have hard time, but who knows you’ll be on the top of
your game!”
“But when is that! Everybody is
on the top of their game, even Milo had succeeded to find true love and the
best career to be a father of his 15 puppies!”
“Seriously dear, you’ll have your
time really soon.”
I kissed my mom goodbye as I walk
through the busy streets of people going to work. I have entered different
companies to leave my CV’s and had an on the spot interview. As I walk through
the day everybody was incredibly busy. Every person had their own paper,
cigarette, coffee to hold on to, except for one, me, all I have was sweat and a
handkerchief! Damn this first day impressions never made me a plus points.
“Henry!” a squeaky voice from my behind, as I look back I saw Anakin waving, as
if I just came out of the plane. Honestly, you wouldn’t like what I did. As she
rode her bike towards me, instead of waiting for her, I ran away instead and how
in the world could she smile in this kind of weather. I don’t know how she did
it but it looks like she did some teleportation “Going somewhere stranger?
That’s weird, you seem scared that I am. And wowowowhohooow! Looking good Mr.
Frown man!”
Irritated. I gave her an
unapproachable smile again “Don’t you get scared of me? Hello I am a man? I
could kill you this instant!”
“You don’t look scary to me and I
don’t think you can kill somebody just because they shouted HENRY!!!!!” she
laughed.
“Okay okay Lil miss! I give up! What
are you doing in the middle of the day? It’s so hot that you might get a heat
stroke!”
“Can you see I’m on a busy day of
delivering cookies?”
“If you’re busy why did you still
have time to follow me?”
“I don’t know, but my heart told
me so!”
“Seriously? So this is your new
job? About 2 nights ago you we’re crying about not getting in to the company
you wanted and now you’re employed”
She scratch her head and laugh “Well,
you’re right. But in this crazy world of foolish people we should stay strong
and not to bother the failures of life! And in fact it’s my mom’s mini
business, she really good in baking and making really great coffee and I get
paid because of this. You should visit our café once in a while. And I’m still
in a job hunting, I’m never giving up.” She smiles and took a cookie jar on her
delivery basket together with her phone card “Here freshly baked cookies for
you! You can contact our cafe here if you want to go. I better go, I have more
cookie jars to deliver. Good luck on your future endeavors! I know you’ll make
it! And someone will call you!” she smiles as she waved at me good bye. That
Little rascal. How in the world could she give me those kind of encouragement
if she herself couldn't get a job?
Whew! Good thing she gave me
cookies! I’m starving to death. Hmmmmm…. Not bad! Seriously! This cookies are
just like my mom’s cookies! Again another day had pass.
Phone rings…………….. And you wouldn't believe who just called.
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