First love by Janine Kaye

You we're so happy and inlove

You look at her so brightly like you were so sure she was the one

No matter how I assure myself I was okay

I know deep down, I am never going to be

Seeing you smile with her pains me from losing myself

All I wish that I hope it was me

But I know in this journey of my own love story

It would never be me and we will never be

That hurdling feeling

That hurdling feeling

I would love to hold your hands and keep close to you till our hair turns gray

I wouldn't care less about what people would say just being next to you is okay :)

We would stare into each others eyes and wait the time pass by

You would crawl your hands into my hair and tell me everything would be fine

We would laugh at each other for being so cheesy

And you would hug me so dearly

We would both look at the big dark sky..

And lose ourselves until we cry

That's how I picture our love story

Simple yet lovely

But as I look into those eyes....

I would realize that our story somewhere trap beyond my bliss

It was only me who loves you within my reach....

Because everything I wrote about you would always be a part of my dream

And no matter how much I remind myself about this realm

I still lose myself thinking about you

10 things I would love to do in South Korea :D

I have always been dreaming about what should I do first if I visited South Korea. On the top of my list was supposed to be living the dream in a Drama (You know the different places Korean dramas where taken place). 

But for the whole bucket list thing, this is what I would want to do if I set my foot in Korea. So I drew my very own version of top 10 Things I like to do (SOMEDAY)

1. Of course NAMSAN.  To experience the panoramic view of Seoul, not to mention it's beauty during sunset and night time :D Well, I guess, I really need to have my very own lock to place at the tower :D hihihih :) 

2. To try their Street foods. Especially Fish CAKES and Tteopokki. 

3. To Dance Boombastic like Park Bo Gum :) 

it looks amazingly fun.... dancing with your Hanbok :)

4. To visit entertainment companies. Just to feel the vibes on what is it like to be there, where your unnies and oppas had trained years to give you major inspirations and reason why you want to visit their country :D

I would also love to visit SM TOWN COEXTRIUM you can basically read the KPOPPED blog here :D http://k-popped.com/2015/10/travel-smtown-at-coex-artium/

5. Drink coffee at Dal.Komm. Because Descendants :D 

6. To shop at myeongdong. They say all you want to see is here, and all you wanted to buy is here. 

7. Try their IIIIICCCCCCCEEEECRRREEEAAAAAM :D 

8. Enjoy Rides at Everland. Even if I am a scared y cat I still wanted to try just one ride :) ahahaha 

9. To visit the Do Min Joon Museum. 

I don't know if the museum/exhibit still exists, because according to some blogs I have read they had changed it to a different location.... OMO

10. I don't know if it's possible, but I hope and pray that I could meet my favorite idol and bond with them ( DREAM THE IMPOSSIBLE DREAM)

Oh come on guys, stop staring at me as if I am DREAMING :D

I know you want me <3

my inner thoughts: I need to pinch you a little to get your head back :D

WHO KNOWS RIGHT? :D

It’s okay, it’s love

Is it okay to love?

Even if the odds are against it?

Is it okay to feel for someone?

Even if he doesn’t reciprocate it

Is it okay to know someone?

Even if he doesn’t know you?

Is it okay to hope for love?

Even if it’s just a dream

What are the chances I need to take?

Just to meet that someone who makes my heart ache?

I really want you

But I just can’t

For the reason I feel for you is unknown

For the love I seek would never be return

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Just one day....

What if one day we meet?

Stare into each other like this?

Or maybe just fall in love

All those what ifs

Trapped inside my very heart

Dreaming that one day

They will all come true

And be sealed with a kiss

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Love

Love, you’re so hard to reach

Escaping reality is all I do

Every breath I take is all about you

Jumping through conclusions

Of those unending fear of not seeing you

Nothing seems to be clear especially my feelings for you

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Falling in love

Falling in love was the least thing I would love to do.

I remember how she said that

She wanted to be loved

Yet she was afraid to love

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Before it's too late

Before its too late

There's something I would like to say

Something that I couldn't say out loud

But I guess I could express in these words

She took her pen and started to confess

Her undefined feelings to a boy,

A boy who's close to her heart 

and would always be the one who could make it stop

She worried so much on that possibility

Maybe one day they would fall in each others arms

She liked him so much 

And she didn't even know why

They fight like a bickering couple

and work out things like a fool

She liked to ask him a dozen of times

What are we? but her lips are stopping her to utter a word

She wanted you to make a move

She doesn't need some proof

She wanted you to know how she feel

but there you were just trying to make her unease

She gets jealous with the girls around you

but all she did was to fight for those feelings

She always feel that she's just a friend beneath those eyes

that she would lock herself to sleep and wonder in her dreams

Now she wrote her feelings on a paper

so that she'll never forget how it feels 

The indescribable happiness when your skin touches

Those whispers that lingers into her soul. 

Please do hold my hand 

Tell me to not let go

because maybe in the near future

I would be smiling the brightest and I'm sorry it won't be you...

I don't like that too happen
because I can say that you're my greatest love
yet a frightening one
so please, please, tell me that you feel the same

So hello my dear friend

Stand up for her

Don't be afraid to take the risk

because maybe by that time comes

the feelings she wrote on that paper

will soon be crumpled

and will forever be forgotten 

Do it now, before it's too late 

In a hopeless romantic case

Growing up, my head is filled with fairy tale stories about a girl who falls in love with a prince. I always picture myself being a princess and that one day my prince would come and marry me. But as I grow older, well, I still wish for my prince to come (even if he doesn't have a crown) and that he would save me from my "Man Hating" curse and that he would change the way I see about men...

Oh well, I'm still 21, and I still have a lot of time to see the man of my reality hahahha :)) I guess? In the midst of my daydreaming event, I don't know but, my hands and imagination started to drew couples and wishing that the girl I drew is me.... :))))

Here are some photo's I had drawn this past few months :)

Apparently they don't exist :)

I love the idea of falling in love and meeting that one person that makes your heart beats faster and slower all at the same time. As much as I do believe in fairy tales there is this one feeling that I could never change maybe someday but I guess not today.

The fact that I am surrounded by men, from my brothers, to my uncles, grand fathers and friends, I still had a hard time relying to much on guys... It's kinda weird since I have tons of crushes but still I am a Man Hater...

I love reading anime's, cartoons, movies that tells their love story, it's somehow a feeling that I want to feel but I guess I'm not interested to whom I will be sharing that feeling. It's just that I can't help it. The feeling of hating men in a perspective that some people wouldn't understand. They say that I am spending too much on fairy tale love story that I forgot to think about the reality. Well, to be honest, I still know and I can still distinguish what is real and what is not real. It's just that I prefer to see what's happening beyond my emotions rather than just staring and feeling it.

And if that time comes, I know I could not stop it, I know that my heart would change, but to that person who will be invading my heart, you must be someone who can change the way I see men. That you can prove to me that it's okay to fall in love, as long as you will catch me when I fall  and that not all men are the same :) hahahahaha..... Simple right!

hahaha... why am I even writing this. Oh well. Yes apparently my dream guys doesn't exist in real life... they do but only in my dreams... so Here's what I have been doing for the past days when I'm off duty :)

(when that time comes, I want to stare at you for hours)

(to comfort you when you are down)

and I know that someday there will be that someone who will make me blush unconditionally :)

But apparently these guys don't exist hahahha :))) 

And so I wrote a song :)))

Hi guys... So I'm in the middle of music making this few days...:) I gathered all poems I have and started dealing with some background music hehehe...

My mom saw me and made fun of me by saying "Ang lakas maka-Taylor Swift", I immediately turn over and say "Hindi Ah!" But deep inside I feel like I was Taylor Swift hahaha..

Anyways I wrote a song, well, added some, it was my mom old poem during her younger years...and this is
going to be my very first composition using my brother's guitar hehehe "Feeling expert" anyways... and she told me to put a background music :)hehehe... 

Here you go mom! I made your poem into a song! :) thanks to baby jullian for teaching me how to strum the guitar :) 

This song is a song about "Hidden Love" or a "Secret Crush" but since that "CRUSH" doesn't know maybe this song could help... :)) hahaha... or maybe your crushes would feel the love vibes from you... hahaha....

You can check out my video here... so excuse me with some over low quality :) hahaha 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CgAO71SNOSg

And the other video is a bit shorter and a bit clearer I guess... So I hope you guys will enjoy it, especially YOU! hahahaa...