The path of Dreams (where do I actually begin?)

I always tell myself, 'Don't worry, you are halfway there!'. Honestly I just don't know how to get there; I have been walking to different doors and has never been into the real world. Still, I am here aiming that I could hit the best shot and I know I will be there not one time, one day, someday but today; I could achieve it today!

It's a bit funny because every time I do my 100% best, it just don't turn out the way it's supposed to be it seems to be lacking something important. Despite of thinking to much, I just decided to look at the bright side and relax (Come what may, let every moment surprise you) and boom Surprise surprise everything happens for a reason :) Because of that criticisms followed abruptly, unstoppable and a bit painful. But I love listening to criticisms because I know that it will make me do better. They are major trials and triumphs you have to overcome. Instead of feeling down and sad, I put myself up and do the best that I can be.

As I cross the paths of success and dreams I know that that day will come today all I have to do is to believe in myself and have faith that everything will happen on the right time and on that perfect moment.

I may be too late for others but if they could just see the hardships I am going through I know they would understand. But the world is full of mouths and stereotypes they could ruin you in just one single time and all you have to do is to be strong and carry on!

My path of dreams may be nowhere to begin with, a childish dream for others but this is my dream and no one can stop me from aiming that star. I may cross thousands of miles for this but I will never give up, I'll be fighting till the end of time for this! Today I am conquering my dreams! :) AJA!

SOMETIMES.....

Sometimes I think that there's something wrong with me

I use to lay my head on my pillow thinking what went wrong

Am I designed to be like this 

Or the trials of time made me who I am today

I keep on wondering, how in the world am I supposed to fit in

Everyone has their own way of perspective

Everyone knows what path to take

And here I am drowning in my own dreams

Day dreaming that one day it might come true

But when will that happen......

Today, Tomorrow, Next Week, Next year or Never

Sometimes I worry about the things I hear from different people

I over think about the things they say

I tried not to listen 

But everyday it keeps bugging me 

I know I am Okay

I know that this life is the life I made

and I have talents and wisdom to share

But why am I feeling this way?

Sometimes I doubt the capacity that I can give

That I am not good enough 

Or I am not someone who can give the best shot

I always tried to be the very best that I can be

But there is always lacking

My self esteem is scattered everywhere

I don't know how to pick up all the guts in the world

Sometimes I wonder where did all the intelligence go

Am I so lazy to stand up when God showered intelligence?

Or I am just designed to be like this

Unwary, Unappreciated......... etc etc....

Sometimes I close my eyes and think that this feelings never existed.....