Meeting Darth Vader Last Part by Janine Kaye

“Hey, are you okay” I asked “Yes, thank you for bringing me here” I sat beside her as she turns her cup of coffee on her hand “I’m Anakin’s mother, we’re not actually on the same age range Henry. I did it because of my job and career. I was such a pathetic mother! I used to be an actress on theatre plays until I have Anakin. My boyfriend who was also an actor left me when he found out that I’m going to have a baby with him. And because I should not say anything about my pregnancy, because it would affect my career.  My mom and I discussed that we should keep the baby as my sister. Anakin was always sick, she grew up from hospital walls. I could always remember that day she found out that she was my child. She was so angry at me that she ran away and you know what’s funny, she sends a letter on to my door and told me ‘If in case you look for me, I’ll be at the opera house’” her tears fell as she was talking about Anakin. “The doctors said she’s going to be fine, but she didn’t, she always had relapses. One day she told me that she wanted a normal life, find a job, and make new friends. I was against it, but she begged me, ‘Mom please’ and that was the first time she called me mom. Who would hesitate to give her that one wish? She suffered a lot, she had applied different jobs and pushed herself to be the best she could be but every time she does it, she always fail. But you know what she never gave up. She said that impossibilities can make us stronger than what we think we are. People might say that she’s crazy at least she had test through her limits. And then she met you, she really liked you Henry, so much. But she was afraid to fall for you because you wouldn’t understand. Last four years ago, she went back to the hospital and told us she wanted to be better, she wanted to be better not just for us, for herself but for you too Henry. It’s funny right, it was destined that you and I worked at the same company for four years and watch you grow into a fine young gentleman. You are Anakin’s hero and even if she’s so weak, she wanted to see you for the very last time.”

I can’t help but to suffer seeing Grace cry in front of me and worst hear those words from her. I felt that it was my fault too. If only I could change back time and tell Anakin that I was so happy to see her, but everything is too late. I took all the strength to sat beside her and tap her on her back “How about your Boss, does he know all about this?” “Yes, he knows everything about Anakin and treats her like her child and he’s coming back from the States to see Anakin”

When my boss arrived to comfort Grace, I went back to see Anakin’s condition. How did you remain so strong despite of your condition? Why didn’t you tell me what you have been through? I look at her fragile little body as I touched the veins on her hands and arms. “You have suffered so much and here I am healthy and strong, you’re right from the start, I should not be complaining with my life, because here you are battling your life to the test. I’m so sorry”

From my behind, Mrs. Okleary tapped my back “Anakin must be so happy to see you beside her. I know that’s she is so excited to hear your voice all over again” Mrs. Okleary held my hand “Henry, I am glad that you’re here.” She took a small envelope on her pocket and gave it to me “Anakin wants me to give this to you as soon as she leaves our place but I guess it’s too unfair for you, so I’m giving this to you now.” She held my hands tight as she left me inside Anakin’s room.

Henry!

Okay it’s been really weird that I’m writing this to you now. You know we have long chats and walks nowadays and I completely like it! Especially the non-stop messy ice cream eating of yours which makes you less attractive! Bwahahahaha! Anyway since you’ll be reading this anytime soon, I am happy to announce that I have decided to be your one and only Darth Vader as soon as my uncontrollable weakness is done. I promise you that I’ll be good, better and best! Not to mention I’ll be prettier as soon as you see me and your eyes will get magnetize to my gorgeous look.

Henry! When that happiness of yours comes, don’t forget to grab and take a hold of it! Don’t ever let it go! Because if it’s too late, it’s too late. So smile and forget the tragedies your heart have been honing this past few years! Okay!

And one more thing! You’re one of the best SUPER HERO I have met in my entire life! Not to mention your musical talents! You don’t need a cape to be a hero all you need is strength and all the good vibes in world!

Anakin the Darth Vader

PS. Please Miss me when I’m gone but don’t make a career out of it! J

I held the letter beside my heart as I burst into tears. Silly child, why think of others, you should be thinking of yourself. You should be better so that you can still see the smiles they have whenever you are near. Anakin, I don’t know what I will do if I lose your pixie dust.

I lay close to Anakin as I watched her breathe and it was one of the most beautiful things I have seen in my entire life. She’s just like sleeping beauty, despite of her pale lips and skin, she’s beautiful.

Days had passed, weeks had passed, Anakin’s making progress, and I sat there waiting for her to wake up. I brought my old violin as I play different songs I have learned and play when I was younger. Once again, I held her hand, I closed my eyes and pray that she could live. Live longer and have a brighter future ahead of her. Slowly I whispered in her ears, “I’m not giving up on you as long as you hold my hand and never let go. I love you!”

I stood up and started playing the violin. I couldn’t imagine what happened that moment. Is it just a dream or what? “Henry” she whispered “Henry” she called again. I stare at her, her eyes wide open, Grace started screaming, Mrs. Okleary called the doctor and there I am, standing and there I saw the one of the best beautiful smile in the world.

“Hello Darth Vader!”

“Henry! Can you please play for me? I missed the songs you play when I was asleep”

“My pleasure”

After the mini celebration, Grace took a photo of all of us together with Anakin. “Mom, I want to sit” Grace out of shocked, looked at me as we slowly let her sit. “I saw this in my dream. This exact moment, where everybody I loved is here. You, Mr. Dad, Mom and Henry we’re all having fun, having no worries and just smiling” Grace and Mrs. Okleary can’t help but to tear “Honey, we’ll be happier if you’ll get stronger, so that we could go home and search for job” Anakin smiled. “Really?” despite of the pain she’s enduring, she still managed to smile and talk. “Okay, enough with some dramas on a count of three say CHEEEEEEEZEEE”

I was staring at Anakin’s brown eyes, her smile seems to not fade away. Grace, Mrs. Okleary left the room to get some fresh flowers down the hall. As I sat down beside her and slowly held her hand “How’s my one and only Darth Vader?”

“You’re not angry anymore?”

“Of course not! Why would I?”

“Because I’m sick? You’ll feel miserable if you’re still angry to a poor child like me”

“Correction, you’re not a poor child, you are a strong fine woman”

“Wow! That’s new! Calling me a woman!” she wanted to sat down “Henry could you stay beside me for a while” I sat beside her laying her head on my chest “Henry, thank you! You’re really my hero! And I tell you you’re way hotter than Henry Cavill! You know what, I heard your voice when I was asleep. I really wanted to see you so badly, so I really tried my best to wake up and see you and everybody! And I did!”

“Yes, you did! That’s why we’re all happy and celebrating! But No Anakin, Thank you, you are my inspiration in making my life well. You made the dreams I never thought I have. You’re the reason why I strived hard to be the best person I am. You are my superstar”

“Really?”

“Yes, you are one of the most inspirational people I would ever know in my entire life. You are my hero” she smiled as I kissed her forehead “I can say that this is way better than all of my other dreams! This is one beautiful dream” Anakin said.

5 years later

“That performance is superb!” Grace running all the way from the backstage together with my Boss. “Wowhowoo! Slow down! Baby bump alert!” She gave me a hug as she kissed me like a child “Don’t worry! My knight and shining armor is beside me” “Yap! She’s so excited to see you that after the performance we run like a wind! Congratulations Henry! It’s really a good thing I have accepted you in my company 8 years ago.” “And we are so proud of you!” Grace added.  

“Thanks Grace! I wouldn’t have done this without you!”

“Well, I just have the venue! You have the talent!”

“Oh my son! My Henry! Look at all this! It was just a part of your dream! Now it’s all happening” my mom said as she gave me tons of hugs and kisses. “We’re so proud of you!” as Mrs. Okleary tapped me on my shoulders “Sorry to interrupt Mother and Mom” Grace said “But Henry, I think you’ll need this, she would be happy to see you holding this!” “Oh yeah! Would you come with me?” “Oh come on! No need! I think it’s better if the two of you would have the time of your life!” “Thanks Queen I mean Mom!” “No, thank you!” “See you at home!”

“Mom! I’ll see you at home okay! Thank you for never giving up on me!” I said “Of course you are my son! I love you just the way you are! See you at home okay!” she said as she kissed me and join Mrs. Okleary “I’ll just have some important matters to attend to”

Rain. Rain. Rain. “Why in the world do you have to ruin my suit? Don’t you know I have a date today?” and before anything gets worst!

“Henry!!!!!!” she yelled

“Ouch! What the?” I turned around, the umbrella pointing at my back, I started staring at that deep brown eyes again. “Hello! It’s raining! You’ll get sick so I brought some umbrella with me!” I smiled. As she put the umbrella on top of me as I slip my hands onto hers as we started walking together.

“How’s the musical concert Maestro? I’m so sorry I didn’t had the chance to watch the live concert”

“I truly understand love, with all my heart. Don’t worry everything went well. They liked every music I did! And this is all for you!”

“For me? You did this all by yourself the only thing I could take from you is this flowers”

“Of course you are a part of it! Look at the plaque of appreciation! You know what, people liked the song I made for you!”

“Wow! I can’t reach you Super Hero! Really they do?! I told you so!” she said as she made a frowning face at me “Hmmmf! I bet all the girls like you so much! Not just because you are entirely handsome but they’re  stealing you away from me!”

“Oh come on Tink! Of course not! You’re my one and only you. That’s why I locked my heart on to you when I say I do!”

“Okay fine, explanation accepted!” We sat by the bay as she lay her head on to my shoulder and watched the sun set “I miss you!” Anakin said “I miss you more than you miss me”

“Henry!” she said with glee“Can you call my name again?” I asked “Henry!” she said “Another one” “Henry! Henry! Henry! Henry! Henry! Henry!” my heart was so happy that I couldn’t help but to be contented. I look at her again “You seem to be so happy huh!” she gave me a smile “Because my Henry is happier” “You think so?” “Yap! When I first met you, you we’re this frown man, who gets a little bit terrified and pissed if I tell a joke. The world is all on your shoulders and now, you are one fine gentleman! And I think you’ll be okay now!” she kissed me on my cheeks, on my forehead, on my hands, on my neck and on my lips. She stare at me “I love you so much Henry! You’ll always be here in my heart” “I love you more than you love me Janika!” and once again she kissed me on my cheeks and slowly she fades away. “I’ll see you in heaven Darth Vader!” I shouted.

“And there I was, walking in the streets of the workaholic place challenging the world with my capabilities, reaching my dreams and never losing hope. Because there’s this person who made me stronger than I could ever be. The girl that I love. The girl that I will always treasure. If only I could get over her I would. Without you near me I feel so alone without your sight or your voice I’m losing this battle. I miss you so much that it killed every tid bits of me. But there you are, whenever I remember you, you never shed a tear nor feel so alone but instead you stood up and let me feel that everything is going to be okay. And I’m doing this because of you Anakin. I will always treasure the memories we share, those 3 fruitful years of our life together. I would never forget but Anakin I hope you’ll miss while I am gone. I’ll see you really soon and this book is for you. Thank you for loving me.” The audience applaud and gave me a standing ovation.

Once upon a time, there was a boy who felt miserable with his own life and met a girl who challenged him to find his destiny and live with it. 


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Meeting Darth Vader Part 5 By Janine Kaye R. Bernabe

As I lay myself to sleep, I couldn’t help but to smile. Seriously this is so new to me! That silly girl. What is going on with me? How in the world did she did that? What a child? It’s weird but I never smiled like this before, I did, but it was long time ago. It’s as if she hypnotize me to be happy and wanting me to be her more. What am I thinking? She looks way younger than me despite of what she said. She was right, I slept with a smile on face and a light heart and it’s all good.

But there’s one thing I didn’t understand when I woke up is about what Anakin have said. Things went completely different nowadays. Weeks had passed since I have seen Anakin went at the Phantom. Their Café was now own by a different person. The Phantom was now closed. I felt like Anakin just did all of those things just to say goodbye to me. But didn’t quite explain why she left. No trace, no message, nowhere to be seen. Days become weeks and weeks become months and what’s worst months becomes years. I never seen her again that my heart aches whenever I remember her. I felt like I was cheated by a girl who I’d barely know. A girl whose name was Anakin Okleary. But a girl who strike my heart so badly it made an impact on me. Before the months and years passed by, I became a little bit different. I become my old self, what had happened? Why did she left? Isn’t it so hard to explain to say good bye? Are those smiles really meant for me? Or is she feeling the same way I felt despite of her being positive. I was warned by Grace that if I didn’t work harder I’ll be out of the company.

Even if I felt bad for losing someone I never had. I fixed myself all over again. I made myself clear that I’ll be the best man that I was dreaming when I was a child. That I don’t need some flowery messages from a person who barely know me. And I did. After 4 long years I was promoted as the new Team Leader since Grace was now the Vice President of the company.

This time I felt happy all over again. Happy just happy. I stroll to the long paths of the workaholic people holding different papers and newly graduates holding resume’s for job hunting. I never thought I could make it and within 4 years I was promoted.

“Henry!” that voice that sound, my heart starting pounding again and without noticing I look back, there she is. Anakin standing in front of me, waving at me, smiling at me, I wanted to get close to her, I wanted to ask why she left but instead I frown and walked away.

“Henry!” she called, I didn’t stop “Henry!” She called again and I started running “Henry! Henry! Wait for me” it pissed me I looked back again and she was already in front of me panting. “Would you knock it off? Get lost kid!” I said in an angry tone. “Hey calm down tiger! Didn’t you miss me?” she smiled and my anger started too fed up.

“Are you insane why would I miss someone who I don’t even know from the first place?” I said while walking away “Really? I know you miss me, because on that moment you saw me you sparkle like tinker…..” but before she finished I but in “Hey Miss, if you don’t have anything nice to do just get lost okay. I’m a busy man and I don’t have time for your silly nonsense. So could you please stay away from me?”

“But I wanted to spend the whole day with you! I’ll treat you an ice-cream” out of my anger I shouted “Anakin! Don’t you get it! You were gone for four years, no note, no message just gone boom kapeesh! And you expect me to get happy with you all over again! Huh?”

“Yes! Because you are my friend! Friends need to catch up”

“Friends! Even friends say goodbye to one another. Or better yet you just feel that they’re not your friends anymore. Friends? We didn’t even get there!”

“Henry! What’s the matter with you? Does the sun made your head heat up like that!” she laughed

“Anakin! Is this some joke to you huh! I hold her in her arms! I don’t know what you did to me, whenever I think of you I felt this feeling that I haven’t even felt before and here you are again, toying with it! As if everything is joke to you! If you decided to leave, leave now. Don’t ever come back!”

She stared at me “But I didn’t know you felt that way. I’m so sorry. I thought we’re just friends, two people lost in the world and met to fulfill the missing pieces of their heart” She has a point, I’m the only one feeling this way! Didn’t you just heard what she said, you’re friendzone dude!

I let go of her arms made a deep sigh and said “Just go Anakin.” Slowly I walked backwards “Please don’t ever call me again. Let’s all pretend that this day never happen or we never met at all” I was so bitter that I didn’t even look at her again. I was in deep pain. I don’t know what happen but instead of hugging her because I was happy to see her I was just full of bitterness in life. I felt so childish that I ran away from her.

“Henry!” she called I really wanted to look back, but this was my choice and my feet wouldn’t stop from walking away. At that moment, I was the most coward person in the universe! “Henry!” she called for the last time, it was silly of me to wait for the last call but she didn’t.

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Days had passed after that moment. I was struck by another whirlwind. Would I regret that moment? If only I just controlled it. No, I made my point. Did I? I was questioning myself throughout the process of living did I did what was right? Or I just made a fool out of myself and let a girl suffer because of the words I said. It wasn’t painful at all. Arrrrgh! This so much questioning is killing me.

“Henry!” I was astonished by the voice Grace had given me. I look at her, she was trembling. “Grace, I mean Vice President are you alright?” I immediately take a hold of her because she seems to get collapsed. “Henry, can please bring me to the hospital” her tears suddenly fell from her cheeks as take a grip of my coat “Please Henry”

“Is there something wrong? Does your body hurt?” she just stare at me. It’s weird, because I felt that stare all throughout my body that it make me shiver “Okay, I’ll ask no more questions. Let’s go”

This is the very first time Grace asked me for help. We we’re just mere colleagues, I mean no, where just a boss and an employee. Where the heck is her fiancé? I mean her husband? My boss! Where is he when she needed help? Oh darn! He’s in the States Henry! I was looking at her on my rear mirror, she never stopped crying. Those tears weren’t sign that she was in pain. Is there something going on in her family? Is the President in the hospital? Darn! If he is, those tears are for him. I started driving faster and she didn’t utter any word until we reached the hospital.

I accompanied her as we get in. She was walking so slow, her steps are getting heavier as we walk by, she paused for a moment, and her tears couldn’t just stop. She slowly open the room and everyone seems to be in a panic mode. I don’t clearly see what’s going on. But the doctors and nurse are around this patient and they’re reviving someone. I look at Grace her tears suddenly stop as she almost collapsed. The doctors stop. Slowly Grace, with all of her strength stood up. As soon as she saw her, she ran to her and started crying.

As I took a glimpse of that young child, my heart started to pound. My heart is starting to kill me, what I have saw is beyond my wildest imagination. She started screaming “Baby, listen to me, don’t close your eyes! Listen to me! You promise me, we’re still going to perform on stage for our musical play you promise me! Baby, please don’t leave mommy alone. I can’t live without you” Mommy? Grace? How? But before she knew it her daughter had a cardiac arrest.  “Anakin!!!” Grace screamed.

Anakin, Anakin, wait, what’s going on? Did I hear it right? Anakin? Grace fainted and my flexes moved so fast I have catch her. And as I look at the girl lying on the bed. Time seems too stopped. This couldn’t be. There lies Anakin, lifeless, being revived. Mrs. Okleary went near me, tapped me on my shoulder and carried Grace to the chair. I don’t know what to do, I was staring at the doctors trying to revive Anakin. I immediately held her hand and whispered into her ear as my tears suddenly fall. “Hey! Darth Vader! Please wake up! If you don’t I won’t forgive you at all. Never! Please, remember you still wanted to be a superstar and an inspiration to the whole world. Please hear me” and my knees started to get weak that the only thing I have said was “Help her Dear Lord. I have never prayed to you anymore or trust you because of the instances I don’t understand. I somehow blame you for the un granted wishes I have asked you. But with all my heart, with all my heart Dear Lord Please help her. Give her this one more chance. Give me this chance too. I am praying to you, I have been a bad son to you, but please help her. I will be willing to accept all the outcome but please just for the last time. Help me Dear Lord”

At that very moment unexplainable thoughts had come into my mind. Anakin was wrong, we make bad choices and we regret it, it’s not because we chose them but because we think it’s the only way out. I regret everything Anakin. I regret it all. But is it really all about regret? I was a nobody before she came to my life. It was only me. I never cared for anyone except for myself. I was struggling alone. I was in a huge depression. My anger, frustrations, unanswered prayer, everything was a part of my undying illusions. Anakin can you hear me I regret everything that happened in my life. But I never regret meeting you at the rain, seeing you all flustered and happy while riding your bike, hearing you call my name, I never regret wanting you to stay beside me. I never regret everything from our first meeting to our last. But if you wouldn’t wake up right now I would regret that I could never say that love you from the very start. I was a man full of dreams, but everything had sunk when reality hits me big time that I don’t know how to be happy anymore. Yes I was happy when I got the job, I got the promotion, and I had the car of my own a shelter to live on. It was all a part of my childhood dream. Then suddenly I realize that I don’t even know what my dreams really are until I met you. Please wake up. You told me that I should hold your hand right, so hold my hand now. Please.

The doctors were still doing their best to revive her and all I do was to hold her hand as I cry. But the doctors said it was all too late. “I’m sorry we have done every……” but before he finished I grab the doctor on his suit “Don’t ever say that! You’re a doctor! You’re meant to save life!” Mrs. Okleary stopped me from what I have been doing “Henry, please let go!” “No Mrs. Okleary, she must live, she have tons of dreams to make it happen, and we’re both going to do it and Doctor I am begging you!”

I don’t believe in miracles but I guess, Anakin was a miracle.

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Meeting Darth Vader Part 4 by Janine Kaye

Our routine was the same, she says Henry out loud all the time that it made me so nervous I would like to hide. As if I am seeing a child who is fond of her older brother. But day by day, Anakin started to lose some deliveries that I only see her once in a while. Since its weekend I decided to visit her at their family café near our house. The café reminds me of the movie Serendipity, it structures, formation and unique ambiance made all lovers come to this café; and in the middle of the bar you can see a quote from the movie "You don’t have to understand. You just have to have faith……. In destiny”

While I was looking for a sit, a lady came close to me and ask me what my order is. “Good day, ma’am! I’m looking for Anakin, is she here?” the lady laugh and said “Oh no, you can’t order my daughter she’s priceless” I immediately shook her hand as I stood up. “Nice to meet you ma’am I didn’t mean that way” she tapped my hand as she say “I know, don’t you get a joke? Or I am not a good joker?” but before she called Anakin “Henry!” that sound, that voice, that pitch, it made my heart pound as if I’m going to die.

“Now I know why you make my daughter smile” her mom tapped me once again on my shoulder. “Hi so now you met my mother!” Anakin said with all smiles as her mom left the two of us “You may sit Mr. Henry Barney! What brings you here?”

“Am, Well since it’s a weekend I decided to visit you, I don’t see you very often these days, is delivering such a hard thing to do?” I asked as she made an unsure yet teasing facial expression “So you’re here because you miss me” she blurted it out without even pausing “Of course not!” an immediate answer for a confused emotional misunderstood person like me “You don’t need to shout my man! I could simply really hear those true words from the bottom of your heart. I miss Anakin!” she teased “I just came here to---to---to  che—che---ck you out, if you----u—rrrr---’re okay, if you have a jo----jooob” what’s the matter with me, I’m stuttering without any reason “Okay I miss you too” she smile “Gosh is it hard for you men to say what you feel? So not cool!” but instead of being pissed she just gave me a warm smile as I bow my head “Yes, you’re right, I miss you shouting my name Henry whenever you see me. And it’s kind of new not to see you on the streets this past few weeks”

“That’s what I like! Hey do you have any plans today?”

“No why?”

“I would like you to come with me and visit one of my favorite places here in the vicinity! You wanna come?”

“Sure why not!” she grabbed my hand and shouted, “Mom where going to the Phantom!” “Don’t be late okay!”

“Yes mother! See you later! I love you”

“I love you too! Henry, take care of my daughter”

“Yes Mrs.” I instantly whispered to Anakin’s ear “What’s your family name?” “OKleary” “Well that’s unique”

“Yes, Mrs. Okleary! I’ll bring her back safe and sound”

According to Anakin, the place she loves to visit is around the vicinity. But it took us 30 minutes to get there. “Here it is ‘Ze Phantom’” she said excitedly in French accent “An opera house? Are we allowed to get in?” “Of course, my sister owns this place!” “Your sister owns this place! Wow you guys are so rich!” I said in an awe “Am correction my sister is the only who’s rich! Not me!”

The opera house looks so quiet and relaxing. Anakin run to the stage as she made a courtesy and started playing the piano, the piano piece she played was “Rondo Alla Turca”. I slowly walked through the aisle and take a photo of her while she’s playing. It’s like I’m seeing a woman not a child well she is woman but someone who is so elegant and mature. “Wow! I didn’t know you play the piano!”

“I started playing when I was 11. But I’m not that good, I just love playing the piano. How about you do you know how to play?” I went up to the stage and sat beside her and played “Chopin Waltz #7. Out of her amusement she took her phone took a video and said after I finished playing “This is going to my daily record. You are superb Man child! Do you have other instruments to play? Come on! You can boast now! No one is watching! I saw the violin and started playing Michael Jackson’s smooth Criminal as I dance to the beat.

I didn’t see Anakin’s reaction but all I can hear was her clapping and her fake audience noises “Henry! I’m your biggest fan! H- E – N- R- Y what do you got HENRY!” after playing she went close to me and said “Okay, do play other instruments?” seeing her happy excited I played the instruments I saw on stage. “Wow! Mr. Henry Barney the Man Child! You are a genius! Oh my gee! You are a one man orchestra! Not to mention your sweet charms!”

“Okay young lady, enough of my musical performance, you’ll be paying for me if I performed another one. So why do you like to stay in this place so much? Except the part you’re listening and watching musical performances.”

“I find inner peace in this place”

“Wow! So deep!” she looked at me with hesitation “You want an honest answer?”

“Yap! That’s why I am asking!”

“I have two answer for that question. First is I wanted to be a superstar” she whispered as she laughs “Second, I used to run away whenever I feel unease and hide here for days.”

“Seriously a girl like you would ran away?”

“Uhuh! I even made my mom worried sick about me.”

“And you’re even proud about it! Such a bad girl huh!”

“Of course not! What I’m just saying is don’t fall with this angelic face!” she laughed “I wouldn’t! Don’t you regret making your mom worried because of you and falling for the wrong decisions?”

“No!” she answered firmly. What is going on with her brain? I would never like to feel my mom gets worried about me. “The thing is, I never knew anything about those days, yes I felt bad to make her worry but I can say that decisions I made is not that bad, I mean I didn’t do drugs or be alcoholic person and do puffing all the time. If you just know how trap I am you would understand”

“And you think running away is not that bad?” I teased

“Okay! Okay! You win! Hmmmm… how did you become so well all this time? It seems that you’re not so mean like you show this past few days” she said in an annoying manner! “Okay fine! We’re quits! So could we go back to the topic you have been talking about and let me understand”

“Just simple as this, the people surrounding me wants me to be someone else but because my heart wants something more I tried to loosen up a little. What’s worst is they wanted me to be a person who can achieve what they can achieve! And I am not that person! It’s just that I was made in this world to fulfil their inhibitions in life”

“Tell me about it! I feel that same way!”

“So in order to escape what the world wants me to be I stay here. Watch musical plays, listening to outstanding opera’s without being noticed at all. It’s not that because I did something bad that I regret it. It’s a choice I made the decision it’s up to me how to handle it. It made me a stronger person it made me tough. It made me stand up for what I believe in. Yes, I have hurt her so badly as in real big time. But if I won’t explore the outside world or follow what I feel, I’ll be intensively trap on their care not that I wanted to be on their arms all the time. It’s just that I wanted to breathe so badly I run away. And you know what’s funny, they know I am here, but they didn’t bother me with my serenity. I think somehow they see some sparkling maturity or immaturity in me. I don’t know”

“Wow! You’re so 4 dimensional or something! I still can’t believe you did that! So you also have some rebel girl inside of you”

“Take note! I didn’t rebel! I just float away! If not my time would be forever gone”

“It’s the same thing Kiddo!”

“It’s not!”

“Okay……..  I don’t know if I could understand it clearly but I get your point. In connection to your running away is it because they don’t want you to chase your dreams to become a superstar?”  

 “Kinda yes, well actually I have other reasons why I ran away. HAHAHA But I guess yes. Super Connected! And to be a superstar it’s a long time dream.  I want to inspire someone that’s why I wanted to be a superstar! Isn’t it weird, honestly I just want someone to tell me that ‘you know what you inspire and me, and because of you I didn’t give up!’ so much of dream right!”

“But why didn’t you chase it?”

“I’m chasing it, I have done a lot of auditions if you just know how many it is. It’s just that He will give it to me to that right moment, that perfect timing and that special day. I don’t want to be impatient. I’m just leaving it all to Him”

“To Him? Are you even happy? It’s just one dream and why is it so hard for Him to grant it”

“You know why, because He’s busy granting other peoples prayers, prayers that are far more important than me. And prayers to build back a person’s faith. And before I dream it, He already knew when it’s going to happen not today or tomorrow but one day. And to add one more thing, He wants others, us to learn that not because He didn’t grant it, it’s because He didn’t hear it. Dreams are like destiny. They have that perfect moment that will never let you forget it.”

“You’re not even complaining?”

“No, why would I? My family is beside me, I have a shelter to live on, food to eat, clothes to wear, and someone like you”

“Silly! But He never gave you that one thing you wanted. Like having a proper job.”

“You know what to all the people who rejected me. It’s their lost not mine! At least I learn something from them. And I would never ever gave up on something I really want just because they reject me. Life has full of unwanted crossroads but you need to be tough to face all of it”

“Why in the world are you so positive?”

“Because if not, I’ll be drowning right now. Asking myself what went wrong? Am I do dumb enough to do those things? Why could I not a get a job. Am I not worth it? Instead of thinking those things why not focus on the happiest way I could live in. And life is like a huge test Henry! A test to accept that something’s are not meant for you and a test to be patience for that one thing you wanted the most.”

“I’m so opposite than you are, I question Him a lot of time. I even challenge Him, that if He won’t give such thing I will lose everything. Something like that. I was once a believer but it all stop because the prayers I have been praying for years weren’t granted. I do rebel against it. Honestly I am drowning before you met me. The dreams I have when I was a child became impossible when I grew up. The rejections I have felt makes me feel less of a person. I stumble, I struggle with my own self. I’m asking how this could happen. No one could help me because I feel I am the only person who’s carrying this burden in my whole life. I have the best opportunities that people offer to me but still I felt unhappy. Still I don’t know why I am feeling like this. I seek questions and help from my friends and family but they too don’t understand what I am going through. I feel so alone I wanna fell flat on the ground and never wanted to open my eyes”

Anakin held my hand “Henry, listen, I may not have the power to help you with your problems, but to think of it, its challenge, you battle with yourself, you compete for yourself and it’s you and you alone. But look into brighter side it’s not only you who feel that way. It’s not only you who seek help. You may find it terrifying but it must all start in you. Why not change routine? Why not wake up in a sense of thankfulness? Why not believe that everything you feel will soon fade out. It’s okay to be sad be in a melancholic state but don’t let yourself get trap. Don’t make a career out of sadness. There is always a rainbow after the rain” she smiled

I wanted to believe in every word that she said but here I am looking at her with her tough spirit glowing like a rainbow. “I believe in you Mr. Maestro! If not, I wish that you’ll hold my hand the same way I hold your hand. And even if we’re so far away, remember I will always be here to stay. Just look at the bright side”

I look at her deep on her eyes “Why are you so intellectual with this stuff like this? Are you a psychologist?” she puts put her Polaroid, “since we are on a melodrama state why not take a picture, we haven’t made mini photo-shoots yet. SMILE HENRY!”

As we walked home, Anakin didn’t stop taking pictures of me, of us of her, and made it as if they’re play cards. “Okay, no we are here kiddo! You’re safe and sound!” and she gave me the pile of photo’s she have taken to me, and took one picture of us together and one picture of me “This is all for you. So you would never forget me! And this two will go on my cutie frames. Henry, sleep with a free soul tonight okay, think of happy thoughts and it will lift you to the air”

“Thank you Tinkerbell! I will”

“Oh wait Henry! If one day I’ll leave I hope you’ll understand”

“Why are you saying those things as if you’re going to live or die or something?”

She laughs as she sings “When I’m gone, when I’m gone, Will you miss me when I’m gone”

“Crazy, of course I will miss you. I am now missing you even if I’m looking at you!” I smile with my heart open! “Boom! Just like in the movies! Goodnight Henry!” she said “Goodnight Anakin!”