Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Dreamscape by janine kaye

Dreamscape part 6 "The ending"



The pain, it’s still excruciating
I opened my eyes
And I was travelling in a rewind
I saw myself and everything that happened
I was lost
A strong wind pulling me
As I was walking fast
Someone was also walking at a different direction
He holds me tight and said
“You don’t have much time!
Go behind her and kill her with this sword”

“What I don’t understand?”

“On a count of three, open your eyes”

“Wait who are you?”

“Just trust me, on a count of three
Open your eyes and stab her……
1, 2, 3………………….”

I opened my eyes
There I was behind my own self
I stab the sword on to her
“How did you do that?”

Still holding on to the sword
“I told you, this is my dreamscape
And I wouldn’t let anyone like you
Ruin my precious dreams!”

As the sword went through her
I grab her body into mine
As our body combined with the help of the ray of light
As I was witnessing our complete combination
I saw myself on the other phase I was lifeless
I was lying onto Chris arms
Questions started to pop
Am I dead?
Did Chris kill me?
How did I got here?
Is this the actual ray of light?
Am I out of the curse seal?
What is happening?
And the pain, I can still fill the pain
My body is getting weaker
I’m so tired I wanted to rest
I don’t want to close my eyes
But I just can’t help it,
I just can’t see anything else………………………………….


The sun it’s shinning
I can feel that someone is carrying me
Slowly I moved my head
“Don’t worry everything is fine now”
A voice, I know that voice
I opened my eyes, its Chris
I panicked that I felt a little bit shaky
“What are you doing? Where is my kingdom?”

“Carrying you, don’t worry everyone is safe now”
He smiled

“Really and you still have the guts to smile at me
After what you did a while ago
And what do you mean they’re safe now
My mean version just burned my dreamscape”

“Look behind you,
They’re watching over you”

As I slowly look behind Chris shoulder
I saw everyone with a smile on their faces
No sadness and fears where traced
They we’re all celebrating the victory we had
“You saved them from your own self
There’s nothing to worry about!”

Still pissed with my current situation
There I was being carried by the person
I hate, I love, I care and my enemy I guess
“Oh my, you’re bleeding!”

“It’s nothing compare to what you have done”
He smiled
Oh here we go again! With the smiling and everything
Ouch! I can my body is starting to get wobbly

“Now rest, we still have a long journey
Until we reach our new kingdom”

“Our new kingdom, how am I going to rest?
 I don’t know what you’re going to do to me!”

“Just trust me”
Darn! The way he said it makes me secure all over again!
What’s wrong with me?
“I’ll be explaining everything to you later!”
Oh well, I still feel tired
I guess there’s no harm in sleeping from his arms
And if something bad happened to me my kingdom would save me
Thinking about my kingdom
Before I closed my eyes
I look at them once again
How beautiful there smiles and laughs are
And there I saw the king smiling at me
Miming “We’re all okay”
I was at peace
As I sleep into Chris arms








According to the king,
I have sleeping for three long days
Like hello
I haven’t slept since I got there
Well a little
But still my body is moving!
I didn’t know that dreaming entails a lot of movements
And that dreaming is one tiring adventure

I stand at the balcony where I see the new kingdom being overjoyed
The breath of fresh air is so relaxing
“How are you feeling” Chris murmured as he gets close to me
I didn’t answer and there was a complete silence from the both of us
“What a beautiful kingdom you have here my lady”
He looked at me with awkwardness
“I’m sorry for what I have done,
If only I could tell you what actually happen
I really hope you would understand me”
I look at him “So tell me Chris, who are you?
Why did you befriend me and then leave me in the middle of the journey
And said those mean words to me!”

“I am a mysterious alien from the south valleys
And I have come to hypnotize you with my powers
All the things I have said weren’t true
Because I just tried to release that strong brave girl within you”

“Oh shut up with that alien thing?
Seriously, I know this is a dreamscape
But you don’t look like an alien to me!
Even though you meant those words in a good way
That’s not how to speak to girl
You jerk! That’s ungentlemanly!
And the worst thing of all things
You stabbed me! I felt ever single drop of blood!”

“I know, I know, that’s why I’m sorry
And for the record, I didn’t stab you”

Still confused and unwary,
What is he saying?

“I tricked you; you were almost fainting when I raised the sword
But actually it was my blood that you felt dripping”

“Okay my mind is catching up a little bit,
So that’s why you have a bruise on your left shoulder
But why do you need to do that
Her instructions were to kill me?”

“Well, yes, but I have a different plan
I stab myself for you to travel to a minimum of time”

“Wait, hold your tongue!’’
You’re the one who gave me the sword
You’re the one who told me that my time is running
That was all you’re doing? Oh come on!”

“Yap, I tricked the both of you with my intentions
I found out what your weakness are Jenny
You have a serious trust issue
The other you trusted so badly
And you don’t trust anyone
So when I had the chance I took it
I met your other self in the past
And I thought it was really you
It was a dream for me to talk to you
But as time passed by
I found out that she was just a reflection of what you desire”

“Wait a minute! I don’t get it”

“I already like you before I enter your dreamscape”

“Okay this is a bit hard to grasp what are you saying?”

“Jenny…… You are my dreamscape
That’s why I wasn’t a part of your dream that burned in your notebook”
“How in the world did that happen?
Okay continue saying what you’re saying”

“It was really complicated,
I don’t know how to start,
I was never a part of your dreamscape
I was never meant to be here”

“What do you mean?
According to the king everything in this place is my dream”
“Yap, but I wasn’t
Remember the part that you don’t trust anyone?
That’s when I came into the picture
My dreamscape was to actually be with you
To ups and down, to adventures and all
But because you we’re so busy thinking about other things
You don’t see people who admire you
And you force yourself to loosen up that feeling”

“Ammm Chris, can you be a little bit straight?
I am in the middle of confusion here”

“All I wanted was you to look at me
But sadly you never have time to see me”

“Oh my, you’re human!”

“Of course I am human!
All I want is for you to look at me,
And you did,
When you turn a little bit grumpy and wicked”

“I am not wicked!
You turn me into it!
But how in the world you like if this is the first time I met you”

“You’ll see”

“Oh come on! Skip the hang cliffers!”

He looked up into the sky
Take a deep breath and said
“You know what Jenny,
You’re so focus on things you don’t see
You’re so much critical on yourself
No one is judging your flaws
I wish you could see yourself
The way I see you”

Sigh. I looked up to him
Crossed my hands in a grumpy attitude
“How do you see me?”
He looks at me, holds my hands and said
“That you are the bravest girl I have ever met
That you don’t care what others think about you
All you do is to do your best
And prove to everyone who cares about the less
All you do was on how to achieve your dream
Even if everybody has a frown on their faces
That’s what makes you brave
That’s what makes you special
And that’s how I see you
A girl who never gives up despite of what the entire world says”
He smiled at me
“Lastly, you were always true to yourself
You say the things you want to say
Even if you think you make a fool of yourself
That’s the thing I truly admire about you
So what if you have flaws,
Everybody has flaws
It’s just up to you on how you’re going to handle yourself”
He looks at me straight into my eye
“And still remember those words you told me at the old kingdom
Those memories will forever be a part of my dreamscape”

“Hahaha… I was trying to lure you”

“It’s okay whatever you say”
As long as I heard those emotions straight from your heart”

“Ugggh! Here you go again!
Why are you saying those things again?
It gives me shivers!
Don’t you know how confused person I am?
If there’s something you want to say to me
Please do say it out loud!
Not give me some flowery explanations to make me fall for you!”

He kissed me into my forehead
“You really know how to make my heart pound
Here so you could feel what I truly feel
If you don’t like it, you can push me away”
He hugged me and once again I felt the warmth from his embrace
My heart it’s getting delirious 

“Queen Jenny!! Queen Jenny! The King……..
Ammm… am I interrupting something”
Shocked to this little girls voice
I pushed him and he started to walk away

“Of course not, what does the King wants?”

“The portal to your world has already open
You can now go home my dear queen!”
Home! I’m going home! Time to go back to reality
Day dreaming is almost over
I smiled at her and followed her to the king
As I passed through the castle walls
The knights bowed their head
As they wish me good luck
The king was waiting for me with a smile on his face
As I ran towards him and hugged him
“Don’t worry my child I am as strong as a metal!” he said
“I thought I would lose you!” I tear
“Of course you will never loose us,
They have been waiting for you to wake up”
Slowly, the castle elevated
And the ceilings opened
There, I have witnessed the hundreds of creatures
I have created with my imagination
And there is Jenkins, standing in front of me
As I tap her head and kissed her
“You are my hero Jenkins! Thank you!”
She licked my faced and talked to me through my mind
“No Jenny, you are our hero”
As the crowd applauds, a large vortex opened in the pink sky
“Are you ready to go back home?” the king asked
“Yes, I am”
As my tears suddenly drops into my cheeks
“I will all miss you! You don’t know how you guys meant to me”
The king hugged me and said
“As long as you keep us into your heart
We will always be here for you
We’re just one dream away”

As the portal slowly closes I yelled
“Thank you so much! I’m going to miss you Hardcore!”
I would never forget the happiness shown on their faces
Chris, the king, the kingdom, Jenkins, everyone
They’re really a part of my dreamscape
As the light shines on us
We stepped into the portal
And Chris shouted!
“I’ll be waiting for you”
As if the world started to get a little bit dizzy
I fell straight from my bed to the floor

BAM! “Jenny?? Jenny?? Are you alright?”
Ouch! My head
Oh my! I’m back! My bed! My room! My stuffs!
“Jenny! What’s that noise are you alright?”

I hurried towards the door and opened it
I hugged and kissed my mother
“Mom thank you so much for always believing in me
I love you, I love you!
I promise with all my might,
I will be the best daughter you will have
I promise mom,
I will make you proud!”

“Wow! That’s quite strange my princess,
But you’re already late for class”

“I do?”

“Yes, it’s already pass 7am”

“Okay Mom, I’ll take a bath!”
I closed the door and opened it once again
“Thank you so much Mom! I love you!”
“I love you too, come on dress up, you’re going to be late!”

I breathe the fresh air
And hurried up into class
I have never been so excited in my life
It was like a new beginning
And I know that there is someone waiting for me
That I can share my adventures with

As I ran into my class,
Feeling so happy
Then suddenly this boy ruining my happiness
Sends a crumpled paper AGAIN!

Irritated, I turn back and said
“What’s wrong with you?
If you want to say something blurt it out!”
But quite with my amusement
There he is smiling at me
“Honestly I really wanted to be your friend my queen!”

I turn to my table
All this time, Chris was behind me,
And I didn’t even know
I open the crumpled paper
With a message “I will always be right behind you”
My heart started to beat crazily
As he slowly kissed me on my cheeks
“I think we’re even”
I couldn’t help but to smile
Because I tell you this we’re just a part of all my daydreaming
Who would even know it would come true
I had the most wonderful adventure that I could share to all of you
And I finally found my prince, who is secretly watching me from a far
All I can say is never give up on something you really want
It doesn’t matter how many obstacles you may encounter
But as long as you believe in yourself you can achieve whatever dream you have
Just have a little bit of faith and trust and I’m sure you’ll go a long journey.



Dreamscape by Janine Kaye

Dreamscape part 5

It was like my insecurities
It ruins my path of dreams
I can’t just sit here and watch
Even with so much pain I tried standing up
There’s my chance
My own self trying to get the sword from the throne
I hit her in the back
And then she kicked
I tried hitting her again but it was no use
She puts up her hands
And call to her magical powers
A flaming paper suddenly appears out of nowhere
I followed her and tried hitting her
But it was no use
I am me, she is me
My moves are predictable
Every step I make is the same step she takes
I was panting,
I can still feel the pain that the seal has given me
My body is burning
I can’t even think anymore
And hit! I smacked her in her face
She fell flat on the floor
As I easily run for the sword
The electrical energy was gone
I took the sword
Went back to her but she was already gone
I didn’t feel her presence
My body is now trembling with so much pain
That I didn’t know that she was behind me
She kicked me at my back
As I tripped into the floor,
Letting the sword off my hand
She picked it
And I kicked her
My brain wasn’t functioning anymore
But my nerves are helping me to move
When she was already flat on the floor
I took the sword again
And in all my power I directed the sword on to her heart
“You are not going to ruin all of my dreams you…..”
But before I finished
The curse seal had started to get worst
That I fell flat on my feet
As she stood up and took the sword from me!
“Well, well, well, I guess your time is up Jenny!”
She picked me
And throw me into the wall
“So you really think that it’s going to be that easy huh!
Hmm… I can feel all that suffering into your every bone
I can smell the glory of my winning
I am now achieving the dream that I wanted so badly
And you know what I am the dream
That you will never be
You know why because you are a loser
A freak, nobody would even dare to get close to you
And you know what’s funny
They’re even laughing at you when you’re not looking
A person like you should be erasing from this reality
I know that you envy me so much
Because I can do things you can’t”
She walks towards me
And a reflection from behind her was seen
“Don’t you like to be like this?”
She pointed out me being one of the popular kids
“Don’t you want to be like this?”
Then another reflection of me being on top of the class
“Or this, would you like to be this”
Me, being friends with everyone,
Applauding my every work
Praising my every move
I was intelligent, I was brave, and I had self confidence
I have less insecurity
Everyone understanding the way I see things
They’re not laughing at me they were laughing with me
People who bullied me before
Are the people who bowed before me?
I wasn’t a disgrace
I wasn’t a part of so much disapproval
And everyone in that world likes that other side of me
Than the person I used to be
And Chris, he liked me so much
That he doesn’t want to leave me alone
Everything in that so called portal
Was the person I wish I was when I was back there?
The things I wish people would see
Everything that I have hope for came true
But that wasn’t me
Despite of what may have occurred in my life
I was happy, yes I had doubts, but all those things are a part of my life
Those things made me stronger than before
I am learning, my cup of life is not yet full
There are things I still want to learn
And dreams that I want to achieve
Yes, I may be inferior but every dream starts with an ambition to reach it.

“And what’s worst is, the guy you like likes me better than you
Who would even like someone who’s smaller than a rat?”
She holds my chin and said
“What a pity? Do you have any last words before I replace you in your world?”

“I do!”
With all of my strength I tried to sit up straight
“Yes, I do envy you!
I wish I had the guts to show the world what I am capable of
Yes, I do wish I was that same person I saw from the reflection
And sometimes I do wish I that I could fit in
That everybody could appraise me, could see me
But that is not the life that I wanted
Because the life I wanted is free from envy, fear, and darkness
And I won’t let someone like you ruin my dreamscape
I don’t care if everybody would say no
This is what I wanted non of you can stop me from reaching it
Yes, I may different but this is what makes me special
I know that could make it
No matter what despising words you say
I won’t let anyone like you turn my spirit down
Because whatever it takes I’ll be standing tall
I will never stop until I reach the peak of success
And I know all of my dreams can happen
Because I believe in myself
Lastly, you’re going down Jenny the bad side”

“You can still say those things even if you’re getting weaker?
Are you really nuts! Don’t you like the way you were treated?
You weren’t a trash in that world
You were the queen!”

“Yes, I may be the queen, but am I happy?”

“Of course you are! That’s what you wanted
That’s why I am here
Because everything you wished for is all me
And one thing honey! As soon as I enter into your reality
Your dreams and future will crash just like this tiny book of yours!
Well, you chose for a painful death, so I’m giving it to you!”
Slash! She slashed my arm
“Well, I think it’s more painful if the guy you trusted
Will be the one who’s going to end your life”
And out of the black place
There was Chris walking towards me
As he took the sword from my self
I tried my best to ran from him
But I was too weak to stand up
I don’t want things to end here
I was already crying asking him why
But there was no answer
All I see was that he wanted to kill me
He sat in front of me stare at me
As the curse gets worst
There he was putting the sword higher
And SMASH………………………………………………………………



Monday, October 6, 2014

The K-Drama Dream

They say that dreaming are for sleeping but not for me. My best friend and I have been adoring Korea since were little kids. It's really fun watching Oppa's and Unnie's getting down from their school bus as they fall in line for the school's assembly. My best friend and I just love watching them from up high, since we're kids at those days, trying to remember it we seem to look like some past stories of famous Korean Drama's watching their oppa's from a far. The difference is, we don't have our oppas :D

By the time we left Saudi Arabia my dream of visiting South Korea began to unleashed when I have watched Princess Hours and dreamed that one day, I'll have the chance to visit those historical places and of course meet my idol Yoon Eun Hye :)  But my dream of visiting Korea slowly fades away when I focused myself on just studying and shy away from the beauty of K-Dramas :)

Now that I'm a bit older, my older best friend told me why not pursue the dream of visiting Korea, watched TV shows that shows Korea, watched K-Drama's or try to listen to their songs. And so I did!I have decided to put South Korea as one of the places I would love to visit in the future :) :) 

It's funny, because I'm already in my early 20's and I felt like I'm back once again to that little girl who wished and dream to see South Korea. I remember how me and my best friend gave all of our voices for shouting when Lee Min Ho visited the Philippines. Like OH MY GEE GOO JUN PYO IN FLESH! 




So to my dear readers, if there's one thing you would like to do, DO IT! Don't just sit there and wait for that moment to come. Make a move! Do whatever it takes to achieve your dream, it might take as if it is forever but at least you didn't gave up! Because of that dream of mine, I'm taking my feet to the grounds and start to walk little steps to achieve that dream of mine. 

Before I end my blog, I wanted to share to you some of the contests I have join just because of the free round trip to South Korea :) 

Speech Contest :)
Korea: My dream destination by Janine Kaye Rosales Bernabe
                Whenever someone asked me of what country do I want to travel aside from the Philippines, I simply answer them in less than a minute beauty queen answer. The country I would love to travel aside from the Philippines is South Korea.  Why! Because I want to ride on a cable car all the way to the Namsan Tower, to stroll on the streets of Myeong-dong and go window shopping, to experience being a princess while walking inside the Gyeongbokgung Palace, or to interact with hundreds of bear at the Teddy Bear Museum and lastly go fan girling to my favorite K-POP celebrity at the Busan Film Festival. Simply as that I supposed, but thinking about it, the places I just wanted to see is so far from one another that I need to ride a subway to experience all of them. But worst comes to worst, I need a plane ticket to visit my dream country.
                My Korean fascination started when I was living in Saudi Arabia, my best friend who lives at the Korean International School, first introduced me to the world of South Korea. I remembered how my best friend and I used to go sightseeing on their rooftop just to watched Korean students fall in line for their assembly, or watched them make high kicks during their taekwondo classes. And I guessed, by seeing them made me feel that I am a protagonist crushing on a main guy on a love story in a Korean Drama.
Fascinated, I started to know more about their customs and traditions, their country and its culture. Little by little, I try to study their language and of course watching Korean dramas and listening to their music has helped me learn more about them. I kept myself busy by exploring my eyes through different Korean sites and TV shows which displays the different tourist spots you would like to visit once you get there. Thanks to “Running Man” for advertising Korean Tourism.
                For others, it may be shallow and obscure, but the fantasy that Korean culture had given me made a connection between my soul and their “Seoul”.  It’s like it’s hypnotizing me to get inside the TV and say Annyeong Haseyo to everyone with matching hand heart shape, while saying Sarangheyo Korea! I even imagine myself being swept off my feet by Goo Jun Pyo, or run with a fugitive Ji woo, stay in a beautiful Full House with my superstar husband or being serenade by K-POP's beastly idols 2pm.
                Currently in weird and surreal state, but honestly aside from my fantastical dreams, I really wanted to get lost in the streets of Seoul, Busan or Incheon with only a map on my hand, a video camera on the other hand, a camera on my neck and a Dora style backpack on my back because this place will not just be some dream come true but something worth remembering that to the extent I would take a “We got Married” polaroid photo “selfie” and snap the different places Korean Dramas had taken place and record every beautiful memory I had with South Korea for my lifetime history.  
                And if one day, my Korean dream would happen, I would be the happiest girl in the world. I bet you’ll be feeling the same way I would feel once you visit your dream come country. The feeling of living the dream, no worries just pure fun.
                 So if there is someone who’s going to ask me which country I would like to visit I would simply answer the same South Korea, because I wanted to get away from reality and explore the place where my dreams began. Aja! Aja! Fighting!
                South Korea, wait for me okay! Arraso!

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Hihihih... Oh how I wish someone would sponsor me so that I'll have the chance to visit Korea... Praying :) hihihi 






All about Blue :)

Yesterday was my best friends wedding, so to add the feel of the color Teal blue, I have mesmerize myself in a Sailormoon ribbon and made one :) Again, it's all about DIY after all :)



The Best Friend Dress - Designed by my mom :) 
Yap, I guess my creative skills actually came from my mom! It's all in the genes people! :) hihih




Ribbons made by yours truly :)




My best friends wedding

Tissue Please! I can't believe how fast time flies (as in seriously). We we're once children who played hide and sick along the hallways of our school, make beaded bracelets as a sign of friendship, cute paper wrap gifts on our birthdays and Christmas, and talk about our crushes and boys, and now, my best friend had already found the prince of her dreams and stepped into the next chapter of her life, a wife :)

It's been two months since I posted my Ate Sarah and Kuya Angelo's wedding and it felt like everything was planned in such a fairy tale bliss. In just a blink of an eye, my best friend had turned her fairy tales into a reality as well. And it's really funny when I saw her wearing that white gown, all smiles, so happy, I can't help but to cry and forget that I'm the best friend not the mother, I burst into tears, and couldn't help the feeling that she's extremely HAPPY. :)

tears everywhere! nyahahhaa.... :)


the Maid of Honor and Bridesmaid :)

Parents of the Bride 

The Bride :D

soooooo maid of honor :)


Trios :)

Yap, I have catch the bouquet in an uncontrollable manner :) 

Mr. and Mrs. Sorita and me :)

:) 


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