Beyond Good Bye! 

Jumping in another JSeries this weekend; binge-watched Netflix's Beyond Goodbye and got curious. I mean look at the poster! Me na pictures is a thousand words. 

Beyond Goodbye centers Seiko who lost her fiancé Yusuke in an accident while on the other hand Kazu whose suffering from a heart ailment, was the recipient of Yusuke's heart and is married to Miki. Things suddenly went differently when Kazu is feeling and remembering things from Yusuke's heart. Seiko whose grieving her beloved, saw Yusuke's nuances to Kazu. 

This series talked about grief, moving forward, self-growth, heart transplant, friendship, and love. I also liked how each episode was named Beyond Proposal, Beyond Life, Beyond Memories, Beyond a Birthday,  Beyond the Storm, Beyond Fate and Chance, Beyond a Lifetime and Beyond Goodbye

Cinematography-wise: Definitely a Chef Kiss. It made me feel like I'm inside a cafe, not to mention that the soul of this story was coffee. It felt like I was sipping coffee, hearing the beans chime through the coffee machine, the pouring of hot water into the coffee pot, the quiet mumbling of people, and the beauty of the scenes wallowing through the bitterness and sweetness in your cup enticed with its mellow soundtrack that captivates the scenery. Ang lakas maka Your name nung isang song. Then suddenly, reality checks in, your not in a dream. 

Byeond Goodbye somehow attempts to give you that fairytale-like feel but doesn't let you miss out on a knock that this is not a fantasy. All I can say "the heart wants what it wants."

I have so many feelings watching Beyond Goodbye. All i thought i would be bawling my eyes while watching but in the end i wasnt. In Seiko's POV we are shown the different aspects she does in moving on, but when she met Kazu at the train station, things that didn't mostly matter changed. She saw the little things Yusuke does but instead of Yusuke it was Kazu. I was even immersed that their first encounters would lead to a great friendship remembering someone She Lost and Something He gained.

Through the course of the series, I loved the back Story of Yusuke and Sieko, the glowing and bright deameanor of their romance, the smooth sailing joy of peace, it was something to look forward too. The Chemistry is Chemistrying while backstory between Kazu and Miki  felt like it was always cut short parang little bits lang ung kanila, so kulang parang pinilit. Ung nabibitin ung kilig mo. 

But as the story unravels, i am starting to become detached by our main leads, just like i said this series made me dream but drastically drag me like dude be real!From light conversations to deal breakers like a camera foucst to Kazu's ring you know that its not right. 

When Kazu was already feeling things beyond the beatings of his heart, he tried to navigate what his new heart says and followed it, all the things Yusuke has done, the memories he have, the people he knew, Kazu suddenly lives a double life. And When he said to Kengo (Kazu's Friend), I don't know if it's Yusukes feeling or his but he knows it's his. 

I have also noticed something in Seiko, in flashbacks with Yusuke, it felt like a dream, it was bright, childlike, like yellows in a farm, it was all about fun and beauty. 

But when shes with Kazu, change of mood color, the scenery the feels convey some feelings she tried to ignore, she faced it and straightly said it to Kazu but you can see in the way she felt for Kazu, that she liked it but me as a viewer somehow felt its half hearted, because Kazu was like the remnants of Yusuke.  the only thing that is living about Yusuke is his heart. 

Beyond goodby's  baseline was grief, and how to move on with grief, and it showed the process of grieving. Seiko grieving for her true love, and Miki slowly grieving for losing her husband in the process of finding out what his new heart says. 

Theres this line Miki Says I just think I'll be sad if you start disliking things you used to like.

 Because the moment Kazu has his new heart, Miki his wife had felt change towards her husband she knew it was wrong for her to feel that way but theres this sudden jolts of emotions shes trying to undertstand. And when she tried to shy away from the conversation she had with Kazu about knowing his donor, she slowly research on it as well but somehow ending up hurting her. She confronted Seiko but in the end, felt her emotions, cried for the feeling Seiko had and she said she wished it was an affair. 

Since Yusuke was the common ground of the story, the reason of all reasons. I felt like even if Kazu was exploring the new feelings he has, the change of heart, the memories, its not loosing the fact that he himself is confused, that hes living a double life during the night and the day. That despite Kazu was standing in front of Seiko, he was intirely emersing Yusuke. That i felt where does he fall in this picture, is he just a messenger for all the feelings left unsaid by yusuke? Is he some stand in for Seikos Grief? 

Yusuke was the dream Kazu wanted to be but was stopped beacuse of his ailment. But in between Healing, Yusuke's heart was a missed opportunity for Kazu. Instead of spending his remaining healthy days with his wife, Enjoy his life, live comfortably he chose a different direction and passively follow his new heart and says to his wife this is a must. the heart really wants wht it wants. Parang ang nangyari all his POV was all Yusuke even if Yuske didn't say so. So when he said that he was confused whose feelings are these? He knew all along that those are his. 

If the story didnt lean on the pedestal of infedility but instead building friendship betweeen Seiko, Kazu, Miki and Kengo, and navigate these changes despite of it complications this might be more of a tear jecker for me. I love the first episode, and i hope it ended in Seikos letter hahaha

My pick up points are the quotes 

1. Life is a little bit spontaneous! 

2. Follow your heart. 

3. The point is, you should think of him as often as you want. And one more thing, Saeko. You said that it was difficult for you to look forward. Don't worry. Humans aren't... aren't built like automobiles. We aren't made to walk backward. Okay? So as long as you're walking each and every day, that means you're moving forward. You're walking towards the future. Right? Follow your heart. All right, Saeko?

4. Stop thinking out life has been decided, you harness it yourself. 

You make your own fate in the world 

5. Fate is actually up to us. Constantly making choices and what determines pur future ks connectedt to our choices.

6. Whenever I think of someone who passed away, I believe there's a reason for it. It's that that person wants to visit me. It's a sign that they're coming to see me.